Today I found out about stuff you did, about your betrayal and how things really are. And to think that all this time I thought it was me – that it was all my fault and that somehow I hurt you without any logical reason. I guess love blinded me as I constantly replayed everything […]
So it seems it is not going to work out…its ok..I am willing to let go…like I said it is harder and even more painful trying to hold on…so you can leave without having to feel bad. Don’t feel bad, it is ok. I am going to miss you. I love you, Fiorella.
She contacted today, it like she reels me in and lets me go. I just allow it because I love her. I am happy she wants to hang out next weekend so woohoo! maybe its progress I don’t know yet but I will remain optimistic. I miss her so much. I’m so excited I can’t wait! […]
So today just now my aunt came to see me, I will miss her so very much. I had to sit down to write this down as she triggered so much in me. We had wonderful memories during the times we spent together but most of those memories also had a tint of sadness to […]
The person I told you about in my previous post, wants me to go see her tomorrow (Sunday)…I really don’t feel like going, not because I don’t want to – I do I haven’t seen her since November 2015. Its just I don’t see the point in going where she’s shut me out internally. I see it as […]
You know there is a saying you can’t lose someone you’ve never had I’d like to think I did at one point. In my case, it is someone I love deeply, a family member, a cousin of mine – all due to lies. It’s a long story guys, I feel disconnected and outcasted by family […]