Cousin K.

Today I found out about stuff you did, about your betrayal and how things really are. And to think that all this time I thought it was me – that it was all my fault and that somehow I hurt you without any logical reason. I guess love blinded me as I constantly replayed everything that I “thought” I did wrong to you but you know what, I don’t care, not like I used not after this.

What you have done particularly your mother. Is just…I am trying to find the words – all I can say is that there is no love there. None whatsoever, I have never in my life experienced such toxicity from someone and out of all people it had to be you. Revenge runs deep in you real deep and I hope that one day it doesn’t make you out to be someone unrecognizable. I am still trying to decipher what it is I did so wrong or what was it that you were told that completely¬†changed your outlook.

I don’t agree with what you did to me, but I forgive you.

In the future, if I cancel plans with you, it’s not because I hate you, don’t like you, or am jealous as it seems you seem to think of this of everyone. It’s just because I am happier without your presence around and I am strong enough to let you go. I hope you respect that without taking it so personally.

Another word of advice for you, you need to learn to let people go, try to relinquish control over those that want to be free from you. The more you want to control others or manipulate the more you change and not in a good way.

Next time when you want to have a go at another one of your revenge phases geared towards me, keep this in mind – make sure you have all your facts straight. Use your logic when coming to a conclusion and lastly remember that there was a period in your life when you loved me.

I hope you read this one day.

Farewell – Fiorella

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